Eating Disorder-Yes, and it lurks in the shadows

by sandy
(california)

Thank you Wendy for the volume of easily understood information on this serious topic.

I had an eating disorder and found it was deep rooted in not loving myself. A direct tie exists between criticism from others, frustration level edging me to fulfill myself with food.

Without going into the personal dynamics completely, let's say I would then feel tremendous guilt for having eaten so much with symptoms of eating disorders such as "hiding" my eating from significant others.

Eventually I got to the root of what causes eating disorders for me. It was my resentment of others and more importantly the resentment I have of "myself" which was causing me hunger. Hunger for love; but only to find that love has to come from within before I would gain the respect of others.

And for those who did not respect my feeling boundaries I had to learn to "let go" and not seek to please anyone except my self.

The shadow self is my self that wants to eat for love and therefore everyday I must be conscious of my feelings towards myself.

Thank you so much for providing a space on your website where we can share our stories and feelings. How cool is that!

Can't wait to see what other things you have in store for us.